Lately I've been thinking about known-ness. Being known. Knowing. Feeling known. Wanting to be known. Not being known.
I feel like I'm on a roller-coaster of known-ness. Some days I feel known and so thankful to be known. Other days I feel like an island or as if I am unknowable (I think, is this because I am an "I"?). After all, isn't it one of the greatest feelings to know one is known?
I hate to feel unknown!
And I love to feel known. And loved. I knew a guy who said what we all want most is to be known and loved. He said it so often that I thought, "blah blah blah"...and I am realizing how true this is, at least in my own life. It is when I am known and loved that I feel most alive. And here's the thing, too, is that I am known and loved whether I feel this on a particular day. Yet I like to feel it. That's important, right?
I think I'm having a pre-fall slump. I am low on inspiration, energy and general feelings of loving my life. I want to love my life again!
Like always, Sophia Bazzi makes things better. Tonight I went over to babysit and she was like a little actress. We played "The Storm" from "The Little Mermaid" on the ipod, and she gave me a play-by-play of what was happening during the musical sequence. It was amazing. I think she's the cutest thing in the world. Her sister Hannah's a close second, maybe. Holding her is one of my top five favorite things right now.
Tomorrow I am going to make a pizza. I haven't made a pizza in far too long and my hands need to.
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To carry a metaphor someone recently told me...
ReplyDeleteEach person, I think, is like the iceberg--isolated and hidden in the vast sea of society. We're easily indistinguisable in that jumbled icefield; each individual, while promising of uniqueness, is made of the same components as any other. We desire to be known in order to express our individuality, and yet to also share our commonalities beneath the surface, which can seem so shrouded and impenetrable at times, undefined even to oursevles. To make things more dynamic, each of us changes constantly; our forms are moved and shaped at once by the sea as well as by forces within.
The difficulty, then, in feeling known, comes from only being able to readily see the parts of us that show above the surface. We know there is more to each of us below, inside, and can sometimes see the outline of great depth, but to share that depth takes more than looking from the surface. It takes a mingling of forms, a connection of ideas and emotions.
As we reveal only part of our own depth to society, it is too common to feel as though we are not or can not be known. Truly. But don't forget, as you clearly have not Liv, that there are others near you whose forms touch you below the surface, even as we only see that which is above the waterline. We move with you in the sea, drifting towards the unknown (and even more unknowable) horizon.
Wow, are you "The Thinker" or what?! :)
ReplyDeleteMe thinks. Therefore, I's am.
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